when i think about what's going to be installed for me in the years to come,
i get excited
but yet at the same time pretty worried.
its natural isn't it?
seems exciting if everything turns out well, really well and the way it should be, at least according to me.

but i know there's nothing i can control and things would probably not turn out well if i force it happen
i don't want to seem like a control freak but neither can i afford to not care about it
i guess the answer here is balance, something that i have been trying to achieve but doesn't come easy for me
this means too much to me already at this point in time.

i'll learn
and
let things flow naturally i presume
and hope for the best

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