the start of the new year didn't start off like how i wish it did
but nevertheless, it wasn't that bad
just that it could've been better.
but everything could be better right ?
there's always room for improvement you might say

but i must agree that i felt the chinese new year mood more than last year,
which is a good thing.
buying new sheets, decorating the house a teeny wee bit
and buying new clothes and of cause, underwear.
i wouldn't say that i'm the superstitious sort,
i'm just doing it so that i can psychologically 'feel better' about everything

i did what i could to the best of my ability
but some things just cannot be avoided.
squabbles and what nots are cases in point,
not typically a nice way to start the new year
but i guess the air's has been cleared up abit for now
and things are looking (hopefully) much rosier
there's so much for me to learn and grow
and i hope that there's sufficient time involved,
asking a snail to run is quite the contrary
but it'll move eventually, right ?

whoever said it was easy is probably so wrong
it's never easy
and yes,
it does take two to clap.
i understand how it works,
just that i have to take my time to learn,
not the hard way
and i do want to learn,
that's needless to say.

seeking solitude,
i understand that.